Hi,

A couple of months ago I posted a review about my experience on lavalife. Yes, I had met a man on Lava which I fell for. At the time I posted my review I felt bitter and hurt.It has taken me almost a year to face the truth that all we can ever be is friends. This was my first heartache and it has taken a long time to heal. I must say that this man has been very patient with me. Instead of walking away which is what normally happens when two people don't click, he offered me his friendship. I wish that he doesn't leave my life, but there is nothing that connects us together. If we were to stop talking to each other, our paths would never cross. This saddens me the most sometimes. As a friend, I wish I could do so much for him. He has his circle of friends and I hope he will let me in one day. Presently, he adds more value to my life than I do to his. This makes me sad too. What can I do to add value to his life as a friend ?

My other problem is that I have a hard time being myself around him and it causes me to behave like an idiot. I think I try to hard sometimes. There is nothing that I would not do for him.

In my previous posting I had also mentioned that he had lied to me and that he had someone in his life. This is not true. He does want to meet someone to have a life with. He wants a family too. I hope he can share his happiness with me someday.

M.of M I just wanted to tell you that I am sorry about everything. Forever your friend Brown eyed girl